I DO NOT OWN THE RIGHTS TO ANY MUSIC
I think I’m in a phase of life where I’m aware of where I am, who I am, and what I want to become, but I’m struggling to be that because I am still battling my old self in my mind. It’s at a point where I know I’m happy, but I’m tempted to dabble in my old ways because that was my comfort zone for so long. That feeling though is only coming from a time period of limbo in which I correlate my old “happiness” I’m chasing to. The reality is, it’s not even happiness… It’s me attempting to be comfortable in the old ways that no longer serve any purpose to me. It’s a struggle becoming the man I want to be while also being conscious of the boy I once was...
Some days I’m in my routine of waking up early, reading, working out, getting my work done in an efficient manner, and this has created many great days for me. I can wake up the next day though and just feel so out of it and detour from my productive routine to something that’s more comfortable for my current mood such as scrolling on social media all day or watching tv to distract me from what I should be doing instead. As I spoke on in a prior blog, it’s so easy to get off track from what’s benefiting you if you aren’t aware of what’s going on. My old ways can keep me from achieving the things waiting for me in the new doors opened for me, but if I stay by the door that I’m most comfortable with then I’ll miss out on so many other blessings that could be awaiting my arrival.
I understand that with growth, something must be sacrificed in return. Your ego, your desires, your emotions, SOMETHING. Usually what we are being asked to give up isn’t even valuable in the grand scheme of things too. What we tend to lose we will gain back in another form with greater rewards because of our obedience to make the initial sacrifice asked of us. Structure feels like someone forcing us into conformity for some though. When it’s something you give yourself and you know what you need to improve on, then it will be beneficial for you in more ways than many. Discipline yourself or you will live your life in the wanders of what you could’ve been if only you had some obedience.
When you make a decision, stand by it. It’s ok to think and get your options together beforehand, but when you make your decision do not look back. Go all out! Don’t go to war with yourself in your mind over if you made the correct decision and proceed to think yourself into a hole on why you made that choice, be all in and accept whatever comes along with what you decided to go with.
We have to be ok with the possibility of failure. It’s needed at times to truly grow. If we only learned when we got it right, then eventually we’d become egotistical assholes that are full of our own smoke. The wounds we get in life may require us to do some nursing and may even leave us a scar! What that scar represents though is something that may have hurt us, but we made it through. When you remember the past don’t just remember the bad, I know that’s the easiest thing to remember but also remember the good that came from it and what you learned. Those lessons are what will let you know that no matter what you choose you can always get better from that decision rather it was good or bad. Trust your gut, and trust yourself to be a better version today than you were yesterday. Don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, instead grow from them and remind yourself daily that you are greater than your failures.
-BruceG